An External Tormenter

I like watching movie. Recently one of my favorites is “Bat Man Begins”. In the movie, Dr Clain explains DA about nervous break downed mobster “Patients suffer delusional episode often focus their paranoia on external tormenter; usually one conforming to Yungian Archetype.” Aside from whether one conforming to it, he is saying is convincing in every way to me. Objectively I went nuts. An external tormenter exists in my internal mind. The exploiter is the external tormenter to me. I am suffering delusional episodes on the external tormenter who exploiting any spy technology against ordinary citizen. As I wrote in this blog, I sense many plot of abuse; they watch and spy me in the workplace, super-market, toilet, and park, streets, even where I casually went fast-food shop. As if it seems to me that system is structured already; it hurts me, spy on me, and eavesdrop me, even trying to influence over my relationships. It seems to me that longer exist freedom or privacy in this country. I don’t have a slightest idea of being watched. Anyway I completely went banana.

Mura-Hachibu 2

I told that the family which is fallen into Mura-Hachibu situation would be tragic. How hard that would be? With all paranoia, I can assume it. There is no difference for them between ordinary people and exploiter such as the leader or authority. Every people’s sinful nature goes them; anger, irrational problems, even their crime. The Mura-Hachibu family must be a garbage dump for many people. It is likely that every people befall into such irrational circumstance by exploitation of eavesdropping and peeping. Namely people likely are bullied. Then, sometimes tragic crime will happen when people’s desperation becomes culminated significantly.

Mura-Hachibu

In old Japanese cultural traditional shame, there is a private sanction against an illegal or incompliant family in their village, which is called “MURA-HACHIBU”. The family being sanctioned was absolutely taken away their lights in every way. In my paranoia, nowadays rampage of surveillant society by peeping and eavesdropping, we can unrealizingly be fallen into that situation by multi-exploiters. If the anonymous family has any influence in our society, it might be a significant risk. If they had no political position, it would be a tragic ends. The exploiter knows such shame of our society, how he is institutionalized in our society and he strongly cursed it. In delusional episodes, it seems to me that the exploiter tries to revenge in our society; otherwise it is inexplicable that he / she are trying to be mean and morbidly persistent as much as they want is.

Please...

In my paranoia, I often sense that my perception is rigged in many aspects. Waking up, hunger, sleep, anger, logical thoughts, sexual feelings, sadness, depress, tiredness, muscular movement, etc. as I wrote before, I’m still wondering how it woks, it seems to me that is as if exploited satellite technology. In the car, train, room, station, toilet in every place, I often feel that actually electric wave is hitting onto my body; by shading my hand where I feel pain. And I also often feel that my muscular is twitching where is not suppose to be. If it was the purpose of the exploitation and bullying, please leave me in peace. There is no point in bulling weak ordinary people. As I’m saying, I have no criminal records. I’ve never hurt anyone using violence from my jealousy or on my own emotional trivia. I’ve never taken a peep and eavesdropping. I am not an influential person. Though I know it is paranoia, I beg someone who may be hurting and abusing me, “PLEASE LEAVE ME IN PEACE, PLEASE.”

Am I a threat to anybody?

I often face someone frighten before talking anything. Of course it is my paranoia, it doesn’t actually happened. But I often sense sort of fear on his (usually men) face that seem as if he was being mislead knowledge was given against my impressions. As I told before, for exploiter, giving false impression toward society about their puppet is one of strategy of intimidation. Sometimes the puppet may be their fearful boss or foe; anyway it is a good pretext for influencing and penetrating among ordinary people’s businesses. But these I’m telling are huge paranoia. There is no truth at all. I am totally insane who messed up. I can say it is true that I am an amiable ordinary citizen who doesn’t really know what happened to me, because I’ve never been intimidated by anyone immediately. (I may only be person surrounding me.)

Car with High Radiation Peeping Device

I hired a Rent-A-Car today was equipped harmful device which I’m calling High Radiation Peeping Device. In my paranoiac situation, it was hurting everywhere in my body, even sometimes stimulates my privates while I’m driving. In particular situation, the exploiter knows that hurting same part of body makes effectively peoples uncomfortable. So before I feel tiredness, it seems to hurts my back of lung, apparently it makes me terrible pain as if it makes polyp on my back side. Of course, tiredness can kill every drive especially when we drive a car in motor way. I felt that I was always being jeopardized my life in a rent-a-car today with severe pain on back and blur conscious while I was driving.